Currently Listening Hero By Kirk Franklin see related

There have been so many changes in my life over the past few months. I truly realize that arranging my own direction in life is not up to me but up to God. I was talking to a good friend of mines tonight, about how we plan for our life to go a certain way but God had something else in store for us. I am so thankful for every challenging situation that I have experienced because it has helped me in one way or another to get me where I need to be. When things first started happen to me, it seem like my entire world was crumbling down and that life is being unfair to you. What I have learned in times like these is to trust God more, rejoice, and pray to God, (ask him for strength, guidance, discernment, and most importantly for help.) I am so hardheaded sometimes; the one mistake I make repeatedly, is trying to handle everything by my self. Each time I try to handle things by my self I fall flat on my face. 

            Therefore, an update on my life I am currently at home in Miami Florida. I am no longer a student at Liberty University, which has been a major blessing in so many ways to me, and I am also single, I am no longer dating Rebecca for the simple fact I felt we were on two different levels; but if that works out in the future praise God if not still praise God. I now attend Barry University where I will be receiving my degree next year. My major is Biology and my grades are excellent. I realize that there is a time and a season for everything. Although to some people it may seem like I have lost a lot but to me I have it all because I have the greatest thing there is and that Jesus.

I say all that to say this, trails come and go but if you know where to find the help you need there is nothing on this earth that can hold you back. Like scripture says, “A righteous man may fall seven times but he will get back up”, that is something to apply to our life, which is to get back up when we are going through hard times. Thank you everyone who have taken the time to read what I have to say and God Bless you all. Remember pray for me as I do the same for you.   

“Someone new”

I once heard a pastor say, “I’m so glad I’m not the person I use to be”.  Until my latter years I never understood the true meaning of that statement. In high school, students found me to be harsh, and very uncaring. Many students made claims that I said hurtful statements and caused them to feel bad about themselves. Making someone feel that way is not good; I only wish I never had any dealings with that back then.

One of the main reasons I seemed harsh to others, was my bluntness and my lack of telling the truth in love. I took for granted that students couldn’t be affected by my words, by not thinking before speaking. There also were times that I felt I was right, and didn’t need to apologize for my actions. Feeling that way allow me to notice that pride had taken a major toll over me.  Clearly I was wrong and I hope to never have that problem with an individual ever again.

Although I had my faults there were also people that provoke my behavior. Simply by making mean comment towards me wasn’t considerate of my feelings. Those comments opened a door for rude behavior to be targeted to other students. Being raised in a Christian home I knew seeking revenge on others was wrong. So I made a choice to become a better person towards students.

Realizing that I was wrong and had to make serious changes I worked on making changes. I decided that I don’t want to be known as a mean uncaring person. I worked on how I gave my opinion to students, definitely consider their feelings and encourage students not to hesitate if I hurt their feelings.  That was a major starting point for me.

As a result of making the initiative to be nicer to others today I’m not that same person. Instead I handle things in a proper manner and do my best to avoid using harsh language. I must say I can’t take all the credit is surely by the grace of God I’m a new person. To this day I do my best to make people feel good whenever there down, because it truly bothers me if someone feels the way I have made other feel in the past. Now I encourage and lift others up in their time of need. 

Please if i've ever did anything that hurt you in any kind of way let me know. I hate when people are upset with me or mad with me or even sad because of me. Most in importantly pray for me.

to be continued: